Starting new...

Terrible happens but then so do miracles
You can’t have rainbows without having the rain
You have to travel through the mud to get to the grass
That’s it with the corny phrases ..
Life is for the living so I’ve been told
You also have to stand up and be tall
Never letting your chin down
Even when it feels like you want to drown
It’s not easy to do sometimes
And getting back up can take awhile
You should stand tall and never try to hide
From your mistakes you can learn
Some bridges can be fixed
Some slates can be wiped clean
And sometimes we have to start again
Then there’s some things we never lose
Things that we never know are there
Like our shadow always there beside us
People who care and people who stay
That is what I’m trying to say
So what ever happens and what ever you do
Just look down and see your shadow
And remember that there is always someone else thinking of you

Note: A very corny poem....what was I thinking when I wrote this??

Am I?

I think “ I am”
"Now and Here"
Yet, "Is it only an illusion?"
Is my lurking fear.

There are times when I'm sure
That tangible as an oak,
I stand Independent and self sufficient
Without requiring a helping hand.

At other times I feel like
A clinging vine, a paper boat,
A helpless non entity,
Not given a choice or a vote.

Now motivated and focused
So sure and strong.
Now weak and vulnerable,
So confused and wavering.

Do I have power in my hands
To steer life my way
With directions and goals
And opinions and a say?

Am I blowing in the gale
Or surfing on the tide
Or just passing through wondering
Who is powering this ride?

When my spirit breaks

The sun is hot, my body ache,
your love is cold, my spirit breaks.

Across the desert, I walk so slow.
I find the well, where emotions flow.

I take a drink, I wet my lips,
The wind is strong, I lose my grip.

Over the edge, I slip, I fall.
Through my dreams, I hear you call.

In pouring rain, I see your face,
I know it's you, I can't replace.

The river runs, I swim in tears,
My soul is deep, but full of fears.

In forests dark, in fields of green,
I look for you, you can't be seen.

I search the day, I search the night,
It's for your love, that I fight.

I walk in dreams, but I run scared,
The pain I felt, you never shared.

I can't feel, my heart is numb,
My strength is gone, I won't succumb.

The silence ends, the earth quakes,
You're too far away, my spirit breaks.

Amaranthine

It's early in the night,
I'm walking down a long, winding hill.
But I'm not focused on the road,
Or where it's leading me.
The only sound I hear is the hollow, far off echo of his rich,
Soothing voice floating amidst in my head ,
I remember everything about him.

He is an extreme, confusing puzzle,
With so many pieces I can never,
Fit completely together.
So beautiful and deep,
Yet, so elusive…and evasive.

The mornings I see him,
I felt I knew him all,
The moments I spent waiting for him,
I realized I didnt know him yet.

He is like the unending horizon,
Receeding as I go near,
A misty amaranthine,
A mirage on a hot summer noon,
Fleeting emotions that can never be penned,
A riddle to which only he has the key.

There are so many beautiful images, sounds and memories
About him and the moments…
I just can't let them go,
I won't and never will,
They rotate slowly one by one
Around my mind,
Like a constant movie that plays,
In my head everyday,
Blocking out reality,
And teasing my imagination,
As wonder if I would know him too...

May be I will never know him,
Or see him again,
But etched in my mind, he will be,
Unfading and unwavering.

When I think of you..

When I think of you,

I imagine deep, red sunsets.

A beautiful addition to an open sky,

Always beautiful when it meets the eye.



When I think of you,

I imagine rolling, grassy plains.

Whispering knowledge to hear,

Tenderness when it meets the ear.



When I think of you,

I imagine strong, working hands.

Pulling weeds and planting trees,

Scratching up your knees.



When I think of you,

I imagine snowy, white clouds.

Softness dotting the open sky,

Way up, up so high.



When I think of you,

I imagine the night sky,

Full of sparkling, shooting stars,

Twinkling up in the sky so far.



When I think of you,

I imagine the sun.

Brilliant and circular,

A big ball of coppery fire.



When I think of you,

I imagine he moon.

A milky, luminescent dot,

Moving like a graceful moth.



When I think of you,

I imagine the ocean.

A secret deep and dark,

Whispering as silent as harp.



When I think of you,

I think of all these things.

Bringing joy and pleasure to mind,

And teach me all about life.

Life's journey

Swim through the pain
Surf through the flowers
Smile at anger
Twirl around the bliss
Bow to the wind
Sleep through conciousness
Gather the feelings
Dance for peace
Curve the path
Roll with the trees
Smash adversity
Cry for the poor
Hate sin
Fool the sun
Follow the stream
Drive to the horizon
Plow the thoughts
Build a dream
Walk through reality
Read the scent
Close the fire
Skip over hills
Jump under seas
Fly through rain
Paddle your hopes
Cast your fears
To the End.

Note : Crazy thoughts flooding my head today..makes sense???

An Unborn Chrysalis

To be free and happy,
To be one like you,
Is the wildest dream on my mind.
But waiting,
For long lost chances,
For those who would never come,
Are my prized memories.

Everytime fate crushed me,
I held on and bled.
Everytime I tried to listen,
The leaden silence deafened me.
Everytime I wanted rainbows,
Rain of tears filled my soul.

Walls of orphanage plucked my heart,
Empty stomachs reigned my nights.
Taunting words and mocking looks,
Bore deep into my heart.
But,
Hope is still alive,
Giving courage to hang on.

Like a forlorn dancer,
On stage,To play my awful part,
Unaware of rung down curtains,
Even in this theatre of my soul.

Had no chance to fly,
Had no colorful coat,
An unfortunate chrysalis, Am I
Metamorphosis giving no life.

Note: My first ever published poem...

Untitled

When you are sad and lonely,
And you know you cant go on,
You say it would be perfect if only,
There was no pain with the dawn.

When you are cold and all alone,
When there is nothing left to say,
And all you want is to go home,
When its just not been your day.

Close your eyes and think of me,
Imagine I'm there with you.
Together again, One day we will be,
Soon, when this life is through.

I will keep you close within my soul,
In hopes you will feel me near.
Feel my heart envelope you whole,
Dont worry, there is no pain in here.

All sorrow drowns away, my dearest.
And just one thing is clear,
I will love you truly till the end,
I will walk beside you without fear.

When you need someone to protect you,
From all that is around.
I will be there through and through,
For my love cannot be bound.

If you wake up screaming in the night,
With no one to comfort you,
Turn your head to the moon's bright light,
And know that I am looking back and smiling too.

Just because I cannot hold you,
Or kiss tears of pain away,
It doesnt mean I will forget you,
I think of you each passing day.

Our time on earth is short and brief,
And even though this must be so,
Death is only a relief,
Even if it hurts to let go....

Note: I wrote this after mom passed away....